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- travels
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- work experience
- current issue
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A wishful thinking who narrated her journey of life~
"In Islam, there are only men and women, there are no transsexuals, and this is an Islamic country so that makes life very difficult for us," says the 28-year-old who has been cross-dressing since she was a child.
Like many transsexuals in Malaysia, a conservative and mostly Muslim country, the clash between ID card and appearance means Tasha is shunned by employers, and forced to make her living as a sex worker.
"It's a hard life, people don't like us, they're always making fun of us," she says as she prepares for another night in the grimy alleyways of Chow Kit, the red light district of the capital Kuala Lumpur.
Tasha endures drunken clients, violent pimps, and aggressive competition from other transsexual prostitutes, but what really frightens her are the raids mounted by police and religious authorities.
Enforcement officials from the Islamic Affairs Department (JAWI) -- notorious for swooping on nightclubs and motels in search of Muslims drinking or having extramarital sex -- regularly descend on the streets of Chow Kit.
Sex workers are sent scattering on their high heels, and those who are caught and hauled off face jail or intensive "counselling" sessions like a two-week interrogation Tasha once endured.
"They asked me why I didn't want to be a man, how I became like this and why I behave like this. But it didn't change my mind!" she says as she layers on make-up before hitting the streets where she has worked since she was 15.
Tasha puts on a brave face, but the the pain is clear when she relates how she has struggled for acceptance from her family, her religion and her country.
Although she is on the margins of society, she continues to perform the Muslim prayers, fasts during the holy month of Ramadan, and respected her mother's wish that she not undergo sex-change surgery.
"Of course I still believe I'm a Muslim, it's just that the religion cannot accept us transsexuals," she says.
"Why can't Islam accept us? We are human beings as well. I am also one of God's creations."
It was not always this way for transsexuals in Malaysia, where they are known as "mak nyah".
"Until the early 1980s transsexuals were usually accepted in Malaysia, they could go for a sex change and amend their identity card," says Teh Yik Koon from the National Defence University who has written a book on mak nyahs.
"At that time quite a few had sex changes, some became happily married and even adopted children."
But in 1983 a "fatwa", or Islamic ruling, that prohibited gender-reassignment surgery as well as cross-dressing was imposed on all Malaysian Muslims, who make up 60 percent of the multicultural population.
"So now they're not accepted, there's no such thing as transsexuals according to Islam in Malaysia," says Teh, who estimates there are in fact at least 20,000 in the country.
"The biggest dilemma for a Muslim transsexual is the ID card, because it states they are a Muslim man but when you look at them they look like a woman," she says.
Some do manage to find regular work, typically as hairdressers, make-up artists, and boutique sales assistants, but advocates say that at least 70 percent resort to prostitution.
"At 15 I ran away from home and to Chow Kit. I cried at first, but luckily I had other transsexuals who helped me find a place to stay," says Tasha.
On a good night she can earn 500 ringgit (142 dollars), a huge sum by Malaysian standards, but since the economic downturn she now gets only two or three clients a night who may pay as little 50 ringgit a time.
Now that her mother has died, she plans to go to Thailand later this year and have sex-change and breast augmentation surgery.
"If you want to become pretty quickly, then you can't be afraid," she says. "Only then will I feel like a complete woman."
Transsexuals do not need to be selling their bodies in order to attract attention from authorities. Last year, Islamic religious police arrested 16 for taking part in a beauty pageant at a beachside resort.
Influential Islamic cleric Harussani Zakaria, who helped establish the 1983 fatwa, defended the strict approach and said that transsexuals should use their "willpower" and adopt a traditional lifestyle.
"Of course they won't get a job if they turn up wearing a woman's dress. All religions are opposed to this," he said.
"You cannot be transsexual, you are either a woman or a man. Why do they want to go against Allah?" he asked. "If God has created you as a boy, then act like a boy."
naqi: itu la dude, rindu gila. nasib baik tergerak hati aku nak scan gambar ni hahahaha
nice catching wif u all! :)
Nuradlina: thx for the tag:)
sapa ada ebby (nik hasril), shahnon and anton punya facebook account, please tag. thanks!
ariza: no prob...congrats on ur engagement!! :)
Ni zaman shah kasi kad kat syakira dulu nih. Haha :P
Thanks weh sbb share gambar ni!
16/45 found ni
shah: kaki basketball time2 tu.....
anyway weh, korang ah organize reunion. aku follow je. tapi lina kat dublin lagi. tunggu dia balik lah. kesian kang kena tinggal heheh
Lina: thanks for the wish:)
ariza: SEGA 'king' ke PS aar bro...ingt2 lupe la....
intan: bile balik m'sia?? nway shah yg post tu......lina tlg tag our pic.
I've done tagging Jack Shen n our 4 Orkid ketua darjah Mr. Erik (it's u in the pic, right Erik?) Welcome2
BTW Hi Tania :)
cain: pn che nah tu kelas bile tu bro?? aku ingat pn chia, pn chua, s. ganesan, cikgu zul, pn zaharah (nik najibah's mom)..........hmmm who else??
shah: ebby (nik hasril) tkde fb acc.
siapa ada class photo 6 Jejarum, tolong share please. :D
naqi, yang kecik tu Cikgu Badrol kot?
Khazani: aku rasa kau bukan!
Ada lagi dlm gambar tu, Shaquira, siapa ada fb dia?
lolol..erik erik!!...remember how puipui fall in the longkang? kekekeke
ehhh tania better not say puipui..later she chase me few blocks just to hit me..kekek
puipui is the girl with the husky voice right?
Buat reunion? Wow, tak datang sejak pagi dah ada 104 notifications... GILA...
Jack, got Daniel Gan's FB? I think Gan Sher Win...
Anyway, still remember the project that we did... Some forest thing, is it??? Is it with you, Erik?
Nik: tu la.lama btol tak jumpa. Biasela time tuh kejap kawan kejap tak.lol
now i remember
shahnon : sepot tu aku ade gak jumpe....same school as me during form 5 at shah alam, makin kembang mamat tu......bole main bola ke tk.......kekek
sidek : thx fer reminding bout faiz....mmg putih melepak, mcm ashraf......
erik : ketue start first, venue n date.......?? sori bro ur the ketue, n i'm only prefect = observe jer........hehe
nik : how r u?? hows ur mom?? lame tk jumpe.......
ilianee : aritu br terserempakkan kt bazaar.......nasib baek senyum......kekeke
shah : again well done bro!!! bcoz of ur posted photo....everyones are seems to b connected again one to another after 16 yearssss......bravo bravo!
guys n girls........very very appreciate dpt contacted balik mostly n almost all u........LOVE U ALL laa..........!!
To All:
After 16 years, it's only right that we reunite as 4 Orkid for a night of fun,laughter and a whole lot of catching up =D. I shall set the reunion month to November 2009. Yep, that's about 2 months from now. Please block that month out if possible. Watch this space for updates.
shah: nk2! my email: gigie_83@yahoo.com.plzz ya..tanx a lotz!
wife ok ........alhamdullillah....
Erik & Jack: heeeeyy.. that was so painful k. heartless guys la u ppl :\
Naqi: you and shidah are married? heyy thats so sweet childhood sweethearts :] congrats!
wahhh DANIEL ...kekeke... long time no see!
Puipui is still very sweet laa...dont play play...better not say bad things abt her ...kakaka
tania: quira sam is shaquira..i remembered i used to hang out at ur place ;)
nama cikgu tu if not mistaken cikgu norhayati yahya (i rase la!) hehe...
if korang nk buat reunion, i might be available in dec. will get back to u guys again once i get the tix ;)
erik- create la group ke ape, penat nk baca kat gbr ni..lol~ :p
how r u???last i jupe u time taekwondo kot..hehe
gbr2 klas lain akan ku upload once i blk msia..heheee :)
intan: jom la blk msia dec ni beb! heheee... :)
ric-ketua darjah kan???nik najibah,eh kite bukan smsj skali ke then lost touch wit u!shah,muke x berubah langsung ok!!!sidek,Ya Allah i lupe la kite classmate,ingat x joke mama n auntie sofia pasal nk kenakan u ,shaquira n i..lawak lawak aaa..hahaha naqi sombong gile aaa u naqi,las time jumpe kat projek then dunno wat happened to u!taw2 kawen dgn shida,felt like killing myself disebabkan terlalu terkejut..hahahaha
anyways its good to c all of u here...hehe Hello everyone!